Calming The Storm

I was told this week that sometimes God calms the storm...and sometimes He chooses to calm us in the midst of our storm. Wow...what a thought.

I feel like I've been in this storm a LONG time...sometimes I can't see the distant shore for the high waves that are crashing into my boat. Sometimes I'm so scared that I hover in the lower deck, oblivious to the beacon of light guiding me safely to the harbor. Sometimes I stand at the edge and think of jumping and let the sea carry me where it may.

Today....today, I'm aware that I'm in a storm...and it's relentless...and I realize that this is a storm that I must weather....so I choose today to find peace that God could calm this storm, but He would rather calm me.

Introspect

What do you do when you find yourself at a crossroad where either choice is going to be a difficult road? Do you choose the lesser of two evils? Do you do nothing and let the choice choose you?

I'm at a hard spot.

My emotions are all over the place and I've yet to allow myself to feel their full effect. On the outside things are wonderful, but on the inside...well, it's an entirely different situation.

I'm trying really hard to just seek God and allow Him to work in me and through me. Not an easy task for an OCD control freak. LOL.

In the meantime, I keep extending grace. I keep praying. I keep hoping. And I wait...

...I wait for a clear path and direction.

Learning Grace...

...the hard way!

Webster's defines grace as a virtue coming from God, lenient or compassionate treatment, something that implies compassion that forbears punishing even when justice demands it.

I've never been a very merciful person and just cannot understand this attitude of grace. Well, you know? God knows that. So, he sent me my very own life lesson on grace and man has it been tough!! I haven't arrived by no means, but I'm learning...sometimes we just have to offer forgiveness and extend grace, even when our heart cries out for justice...for something to make the pain you're feeling avenged.

I have no idea how this situation I'm facing will turn out, but I do know that for now...I offer grace.

"my grace is sufficient...."

Feeling A Little Hurt

I've been sitting here, trying to think of something to post...and coming up with ...nothing. My attitude has been so stinky this week that I just didn't want to get on here and complain, but sometimes, you just gotta vent.

My feelings have been hurt...alot...this week. And well, I'm still trying to rise above and be about forgiveness instead of begrudging the person. I know that you should never do things expecting any reciprocation, but it would be nice if it was at least acknowledged. This happened to me this past weekend. I did something nice, unexpected, in secrecy....and you know what? The person has never mentioned it. Not once. I know that they seen it. They know I did it...I put my name on it. But it has not been acknowledged. And I'm hurt.

This same person has done some other things that have hurt my feelings, so I'm just wondering...have I done something wrong? Have I asked to be treated this way?